“Authenticity is the daily practice of letting go of who we think we’re supposed to be and embracing who we are” Brene Brown.
Last week I finally managed time away from work, some ‘me’ time. It was a time of healing and a time of learning.
What I have learnt is I value myself and my time a lot more now, than I ever have. I understand why it’s important to be able to say no. Understanding that fear is not always to be followed, and believed.
Doing art over these past months has opened my eyes to just how being able to pick up something as simple as a pencil and piece of paper, putting lines down, and having a reference picture to work from, can bring such a mix of feelings and emotions.
As an over thinker it can take me days to make a start on a piece. Those days are filled with thoughts on how to start the image, am I capable of doing a good enough job. What medium should I use, will others like it, and so on. Then when I have over thought everything a pace around the house, procrastinating in the garden, then kick my own butt and make myself start.
When I chose to draw a lion I sat and watched a YouTube video on how to. I saw the artist start with marking out reference lines for the eyes, nose and ears. It made sense when I watched it, but when it come for me to start it felt better for me to start with the nose, then put a couple of reference lines in for the eyes, the rest was to just follow my intuition on what felt right.
I find I can lose myself when I draw, but it’s not losing myself in a negative way, it’s losing my stresses of every day for a few hours at a time to allow my mind and body to relax. This time I am realising, is such an important part of my self care.
So on the weekend I allowed my inner child to guide my drawing. I remember growing up and desperately wanted a particular Winnie The Pooh book that I had seen at the local bookshop in the window. I was lucky enough to receive it for my birthday that year (I turned 10). I still have that book almost 40 years later. There is just something that I connected with, with Pooh, Piglet, Tigger, Eeyore and the gang. They were the closest of friends and I felt like I was part of their gang when reading the book.
To me these drawings let me know that my inner child is happier than she has ever been, and can be free to enjoy all that we do together in art and creativity.
The simple things in our lives that bring us most joy, can also bring fear, but please know fear is not always to be followed, as it can stop us from enjoying the lessons that we need to learn to find ourselves, our purpose and love.
Until next time, stay safe, have fun and enjoy what makes you truly happy.